FAMILY VACATION

After her Mexican getaway, Britney Spears keeps the fun going with a family vacation in Hawaii. The pop star spent the day bonding with Sean Preston, 20 months, and purportedly her 8-month-old son Jayden James – who until now has been kept under wraps – during a day by the pool.

Britney shopping in LA

Britney at the beach in Mexico

Britney leaving the tanning salon

Britney Spears after visiting a shop in Beverly Hills comes smiling out the back door in a short skirt, white high heels, blonde hair extensions and a scarf to her waiting convertible mini cooper. Later on she is seen sitting in her car waiting for the light to change chewing her nails and gets shocked when someone beeps a car horn, she then laughs at herself and smiling she talks to herself before driving back to her palatial Hollywood Hills retreat.

New letter from Britney

Dear Fans,

I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.

It's so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It's like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don't know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn't be here.

Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don't think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn't know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.

This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person...it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.

I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter...to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a "bitch."

I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.

I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.

I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want...and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That's God's job. I can't wait to meet him...or her.

Love, Britney

Quote of the month...
It is ok to disagree with people regarding certain issues. You’re not being true to yourself if you succumb to others opinions because you feel guilty.

Britney at the tanning salon

Britney shopping at Beverly Glen Market

Fresh from her recent boat ride, Britney Spears continues rocking the itsy-bitsy two-piece as she stops by Los Angeles' Beverly Glen Market.

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Britney with Jessica and Alli

PLEASURE CRUISE

Britney Spears takes a break from her rehearsal schedule for a family boat trip with sons Sean Preston and Jayden James in Marina del Rey.

PRACTICE ROUTINE

Returning home from her whirlwind trip to Miami Britney Spears heads back to North Hollywood's Millennium Dance Complex with son Sean Preston in tow to brush up on her moves.

WILD NIGHT

After performing at Mansion, Britney Spears is dressed for a dip at Miami's Raleigh Hotel before continuing on to SET nightclub, where she partied until early morning.

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Britney shopping in Miami

Britney Spears arrived in Miami for a concert at Mansion – but she had some important business to attend to first.

Not 10 minutes after checking into the Four Seasons Hotel in downtown Miami, Spears, 25, and a group of friends zoomed off for a whirlwind shopping spree in South Beach. Their first stop: A 15-minute visit to No Lines Tanning.

Next up: the Guess? store on Collins Avenue, where Spears took shorts, jeans and tops into a dressing room. "She bought quite a few things," an observer tells PEOPLE. "She left out the back of the store – she seemed happy."

The retail therapy continued at The Mosh Pit. "They asked if she wanted the store closed, and Britney told them she was okay and not to worry about it," says a source. Spears tried on several micro-mini skirts and bought a $180 hand-painted pink corset by Kimikal. "She liked it, bought it and wore it out of the store," says the source.

Britney performing in Miami

Britney writes a letter to her fans

In a new message posted on her official Web site, Britney Spears is thanking fans for their support:

"The reason for this letter is to let everyone know that their prayers have truly helped me. I am so blessed that you care enough about me to be concerned and will continue to live in this brighter state with all of you by my side during this trying time. We are all lights of the world and we all need to continuously inspire others and look to the higher power. You are all in my prayers. Godspeed.

Love, Britney"

Britney Takes Off For Orlando!

Britney Spears stunned fellow passengers on a United Airways flight by demanding she to be let off the plane after learning that the jet had no leather seats, just moments before it was due to take off. The flight was delayed while her luggage was taken off the flight to Florida.

Backstage at HOB - Las Vegas

Britney going out with her friends